Life

Argh! Life... *sigh* what can I say? Just people, i actually don't know who they are and they are meant to be my friends- are they jealous? are they spiteful? or have they always been like this... have i been so gulable and self involved that i haven't realised what they have become...
or is it just me....
am i a nice person? am i selfish? am i scary? or rude?
people are telling me these things but i'm not actually sure who i am. at this point.. i'm not 100% sure anymore if i know where i wont to go in life. I'm just a lost puppy trying to find its way home.

Its so sad now (not bringing pity to myself)that i don't have a friend i can trust to tell these things to but i tell a computer screen where my whole feelings are leeked onto the computer/ internet. I just feel safer typing all these things to a blank screen where i don't know who is reading it on the other side.